Sometimes love comes around.

Sometimes love comes around,

It may knock you down,

Just get back up when it knocks you down, knocks you down.
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Tears dry on their own.

Finally I heard from you again.


I wish I could say no regrets
And no emotional debts
Cause that kiss goodbye the sun sets
So we are history
The shadow covers me
The sky above a blaze that only lovers see
Tears dry on their own - Amy Winehouse

May you rest in peace.

I pray for you and my thoughts are with your family, although I have never met you.

R.I.P.

Oh shooooot.

I just got up from a bad dream.

Something must have gone into my head now...

Graduation.

Oh wow. I can't believe I'm turning to a new page of my life so quickly. Finally I have to face my grown-up life.

It didn't start to hit me until I have to make plans for my parents when they're in London. I was like, oh no, how can I look after them just like the way they've been taking care of me since I was born? What's the easiest way for them to travel around? How to make them feel as comfortable as can be, while spending as little as possible at the same time? THERE'S NO WAY I CAN DO IT!

Everything about their arrival was stressing me out so much. One of the reason is because I haven't been being with them 24/7 for so long that I almost forgot how it's like, I'm afraid of letting them down, I'm afraid of they're not well looked after by me, I'm afraid they're not enjoying themselves...

But B reminds me one thing, simple and clear. 'They'll be happy no matter what, because, think about it: how many graduation you're going to go through? It is the biggest day in their lives after your birth and your wedding.'

Oh my god. That's so true. It's so well-said that it stopped my tears of paranoid from falling down from my cheeks. (He can always stops me from being paranoid, though.)

Apparently my parents' visit to Europe is only the beginning of handling responsibilities for me. But with this shaky start, I can't help but doubt if I'll ever be strong enough to handle all the responsibilities in the near future. Such as handling my bills, looking after my family, my partner and my children, and climbing up the career ladder at the same time. Can I really do it all?

Well, we'll see, we'll see.

You.

It's ridiculous how much effort you've put in to avoid me.

What's done is done, so let's get over it and try not to remind each other something has happened, shall we?

I hate being told I'm still in love.
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My parents.

While I'm reading this book, I'm so grateful that my parents allow me to dream, because without their support, there's no way I have gone this far.

Especially my mom.

Even if she knew that it's not the most money-making job that I'm chasing after, she's never put me off from that. At the same time, when I'm moaning about my English level and how it hinders me in getting closer to my dream, both my parents gave me all the support needed and possible to help me. They've never, never judged me.

I've just finished my bachelor degree, and I've got a result that I'm quite pleased with, so undoubtedly they will be the first people who share my joy. I'm still not getting anywhere close to getting a real pay job in either continent, but I'm sure I'll get it. I thank them for never put any pressure on me, never force/persuade me to work in the finance/banking field.

I'm grateful that they taught me to judge right and wrong, but not to tell me what is right and what is wrong.

I can't wait to see them in less than 3 weeks time:)