It didn't start to hit me until I have to make plans for my parents when they're in London. I was like, oh no, how can I look after them just like the way they've been taking care of me since I was born? What's the easiest way for them to travel around? How to make them feel as comfortable as can be, while spending as little as possible at the same time? THERE'S NO WAY I CAN DO IT!
Everything about their arrival was stressing me out so much. One of the reason is because I haven't been being with them 24/7 for so long that I almost forgot how it's like, I'm afraid of letting them down, I'm afraid of they're not well looked after by me, I'm afraid they're not enjoying themselves...
But B reminds me one thing, simple and clear. 'They'll be happy no matter what, because, think about it: how many graduation you're going to go through? It is the biggest day in their lives after your birth and your wedding.'
Oh my god. That's so true. It's so well-said that it stopped my tears of paranoid from falling down from my cheeks. (He can always stops me from being paranoid, though.)
Apparently my parents' visit to Europe is only the beginning of handling responsibilities for me. But with this shaky start, I can't help but doubt if I'll ever be strong enough to handle all the responsibilities in the near future. Such as handling my bills, looking after my family, my partner and my children, and climbing up the career ladder at the same time. Can I really do it all?
Well, we'll see, we'll see.
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