Cute ad

Good quote from Amanda Mealing.

'It's vital to have someone to get up for each day. If you have a purpose, a sense of the future, it gets you through.'

When speaking to the Times, of her diagnosis of breast cancer the day after the Holby City actress gave birth to her second child, Otis.
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Home.

I'm so tired.

Working at 2 jobs at the same time has started to take it's toll on me. It takes me forever to recover from my flu, while it used to take me just a couple of days; I'm sleepy all the time; I don't feel like socialising anymore because I'm tired and I need my bed more than meeting new people. I think maybe I'm stretching me a bit too much?

Does it really worth it?

Everytime when mom asks me, 'so, do you have any plans to go home and make a visit soon?' - I swear the word 'YES!!' is slipping out from my mouth, but think about my bank balance - 'nope, mom, I have to work harder before I have the money, and I have to hang around for a bit longer to see if they're offering me a paid job...'

I hate saying no to my mom, and I really miss home, too. Things in London seems to have gone out of my control lately (well, to be honest, I think it's always beyond my control anyway. But this time..I really don't know what to do anymore. I need more wisdom to deal with that.) and it kind of wakes me up and tells me, well, no one is more reliable than my family is it?

I'm really moved when my brother is running around to fix my laptop, and my dad ringing around just to find out if I can fix it in London. Sometimes, I feel as if when they're around me, all the problems will go away themselves.

Argh. I really miss my family. I really miss my uncle, and my grandparents, who always said they will cook all of my favourite food and take me to my favourite restaurant when I'm back.

London is so tough for me, and it never was my home...
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Tired tired tired.

Oh my god, I've been working almost 70 hours this week...I've never worked this hard in my life before. Thank god all my good friends are back in town, who made the hectic week a lot easier and enjoyable:)

But no matter how fun it is, I still want to say goodbye to my studenty days and move on to a real job...I can't do this forever can I?
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I want a holiday!

Or would it be more appropriate to say I actually need one?
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Future plans.

Future tense doesn't exist in my life anymore whenever I think about my visa. I mean, what can I do when my current visa is running out in 40 days, and what can I do if I can't get a new visa? I simply block out the thoughts of something called 'future'. I'm so paranoid that I even started to look at plane tickets and check how much it'll cost me to go home for good next month.

I've done my best in school to get the grades I needed for the visa, and I've saved as much money as I could to make sure I've got what the Home Office required; but so long as I still haven't got my passport with a new visa on it, I will not think of what is going to happen after my birthday...It's just sad when I can't keep my hopes high. I always love having something to look forward to, you know?

My amazing friends in London have always been my rock since I met them. They pulled me through so many hardships that I've forgotten how to survive without them. Thanks for making future plans with me, like saying going to Nottinghall Carnival with me next year, visiting Europe with me, go backpacking with me...

Can't express how much I love them. They're just simply WONDERFUL. Wherever I'll be at in the future, these 3 years has been a life-changing experience for me, and for that I'll always be grateful to all the fantabulous people I've met in here. They're like the icing on the cake that makes all the memories as sweet as can be.

xxxx


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A pound saved is a pound earned!

That's why I've been queueing up at Primark customer service for 30 minutes, just to return a £2 dress, and updating my blog a bit too often.

I hope my jobless/working-for-free days will soon be over:\
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